Thriller!!

My roommate, April and I went on a date this week. We went and saw Odyssey Dance Theater's THRILLER!! It was awesome! It just makes me realize how much I miss dancing! Yes, I was reliving those glory days of high school drill team (Fillies to the G-vine folks) and it was great! My favorite dances were the opening "thriller", the Salem Witch Trials and the Lost Boys. It was awesome! I highly recommend it to anyone who likes dance theater and is in the SLC area during Halloween. So fun! TWO THUMBS way up!! :)

CAUSE I'M A WOMAN.... W..O..M..A..N!!

I taught Relief Society for the first time today! My lesson was about women in the church, and I have to say that there are so many women in my life that are such a great example to me and I just want to say thank you. Thank you for your service, love, friendship, example, smiles, helping hands and warm hearts. I know, I know, this sounds like a Hallmark commercial, but it's true. I love ya gals!! PROPS!! :)

So, okay. Disneyland...

I am okay. I have to apologize for the intensity of that last blog. :) I had a few comments made to me about it, and although I decided to share a lot of personal information, it was good to get it out. I have been doing a lot better since the post and things are good!

I just went to Disneyland with my family this weekend. It was a great time and we all went to the place where a kid can be a kid! (Wait, is that Chuck E. Cheese??) Anyway, we rode the rides, ate greasy food and watched from the side lines as my little nephew was transformed into a Jedi. It was great fun! I guess I forgot how scary those rides you are only 5 years old. It was hilarious to see my nephew, Ben's face on Space Mountain. I love my family and it was so much fun to spend time with them this weekend!!

My life right now

My life right now is a little....confusing, I guess is the best word. I feel that I am at a major crossroads in my life. I ended a very long relationship with someone that I loved enough to marry about 6 months ago. That was one of the hardest things I have ever done. Learning when to let go is hard and if you are anything like me, it makes you doubt. It makes you doubt that you made the right decision, that you really cared for that person and it makes you doubt whether or not you will ever feel whole enough to love someone with that kind of passion and strength again.

We broke up 6 months ago, but it wasn't until a week ago that I finally cut him out of my life... for good. I have been lost without him and his friendship, even though he wasn't even that much of a part of my life anymore. Why is it so hard to let go of those we love? Even when we know it's the best thing for us?

Well, I know that this is a pretty personal entry, but I feel like I need to get it out there and let others know that its okay to be sad sometimes. As long as it doesn't take over our life and turn us into a bitter, upset, cynical person (note to self :) ) then it's okay to be sad for awhile...

The other part of my life that is confusing right now is my career. Do I stay where I am, go somewhere new or further my education? These are the types of decisions that will determine my path and my future, and I guess that is why they are so hard to make, because they effect me in a big way. But, maybe it's not that hard. Maybe its not that decisive. Maybe it doesn't really matter what direction we take or what path we follow, as long as we have the right attitude and are living true and correct principals. This seems to be where I lose it.

I know what I have been taught. I have a testimony. I love the gospel, I love the church, I love my family. I know that my Savior lives and that he loves me. I know that He paid for my sins out of love. He is my advocate with the Father. I know my Father in Heaven is aware of my situation and that He loves me for who I am because he created me. I know that the Book of Mormon is the word of God. I know that Joseph Smith is a prophet of God. I know that he saw the Father and the Son. I know that they spoke to him and called him by name. I know that President Hinckley is the Lord's mouthpiece and prophet on the earth today. I know that I am unique and wonderful in my own way.

So, if I know all of this... why do I have such a hard time following it? Why is it so hard to make the right decisions? Especially when I know that they are going to bring me happiness? Maybe it is just Satan trying to confuse me. I am sure it is. I just need to remember that when the going gets tough.

Not sure why I chose to post something so personal tonight, but it does feel better to get it out there in the open. Maybe some of you have been through the same things or had the same feelings. I just needed to get some things off my chest. Write again soon...

Gleaming the cube... or something like that

So, I spent my Saturday night at the Dew Tour here in SLC. (that is a perk that comes with a brother that deals with this stuff on a regular basis). It was basically like a mini X Games. It was pretty hilarious to see all of the "skaters" with their tight girl jeans that are low riding and hanging in the balance between their crack and their skull and bones boxers. Then at the bottom of these ridiculously skinny pants are the big shoes.. Vans, Globes, whatever. It is pretty hilarious! I also got a kick out of the crazy hair-dos and assorted piercings. It is just hilarious to me that most of these kids, and I say kids, because that is what they are, are making ridiculous amounts of money and look like total slackers!! I tell you! :)

The best part of the Dew Tour was watching the little teenage girls yell for Ryan Sheckler. Apparantly he is in a new show, Life of Ryan, on MTv. I guess he is the hot new thing and here is a video of his skills in SLC. I guess I am going to have to check this kid out myself!

http://video.astdewtour.com/player/?id=145530

If you like teenage romance and vampires... this is for you!!

Well, I am a little obsessed with the new books that I am reading.... it is Stephanie Meyer's Triolgy about Teenage Love and Vampires. Yes, you read that correctly. I am a little crazy over a vampire book.

Now, it is a lot creepier than Harry Potter, but not quite Stephen King. It is actually really good! The author graduated from BYU and I guess she is doing well now! I highly recommend this triolgy and you can get the books at Costco for $10 each! YEAH!! Read and enjoy!

Summer is over... BACK TO WORK!!

The new season of The Office is starting this week and I am SOOO excited... I just can't hide it! I was dying with the 'summer vacation' stories at the end of last week's episode. This season will finally bring about a little Pam-Jim love story... or so we can all hope! I am heading to an "Office" party at my friend, Mary's house on Thursday. Can't wait!! Dwight, Michael, Jim and Pam!! HECK YEAH!!! :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HCDXIyRdwG0